i spiral down every now and then

i'm being mean lately 

i'm saying things i don't mean lately 

i hate lime bikers who pass me by 

i hate the heat 

from the sun in the sky 

i'm losing my footing 

with the kindness 

i've learned 

it was close just last week

the security earned 

i hate that i hate 

every person i love 

i'm hoping 

i'm wishing 

for a prayer from above 

for something in me 

to change 

to feel all renewed 

for a miracle to stop me 

from feeling so blue

i'm discounting the positive

i'm afraid of the light 

i'm uncomfortable with sincerity 

i'm scared to take flight

i'm empty sometimes

and i want to be full

i wish an end to comparison

because i know i am cool

i know it will be okay 

but please just 

tell me when 

i spiral down 

every now 

and then