acid reflux exes

it’s mercury retrograde 

and people from the past 

are rising up from my stomach 

choking me at the 

throat 

like my acid reflux 

on a night i forgot to take my 

proton pump inhibitor 

appearing 

in visions 

in dreams 

in the mirror behind you 

under the fluorescent 

neon lights 

of camden cyberdog 

i feel a phantom 

arm around my waist 

ghosts of ghosters past 

ghosts of ghosters ex girlfriends too

and a buried history of actions 

all unmatched to the words they represent

a buried history of me and you

spectres float effortlessly  

carrying salted smog throughout the air

my best friend feels it too

we voice note our 

nauseating discoveries 

over imessage 

we contemplate 

the concept of heterosexuality 

and let it die quick 

we decide to keep with it

loving in a forward direction 

swimming upstream 

where the water is fresh

where it rains 

where we might actually travel to spain together 

that is where i will cast my mind 

this time now i’m treading water 

with rocks in my pockets

as i glide 

towards 

sparkling 

bubbling 

light 

heavy

pebbles plummet to 

a deep 

and soft landing 

on aquatic ground 

i’m weightless 

and futuristic 

each day that passes

and each time you're not around